Jenn's Food Addiction Journey

My optifast JOurney POst 3

So this is Day 6. It has been a stressful week and I don't normally use stress as an excuse for anything. I try to roll with the punches! But, changes and issues at work have been at an all time high this past week, family issues abound, I am nervous waiting to hear about grad school, and my mind thinks I am hungry! I want a dadgum cheeseburger, already. I could devour a steak in seconds and polish off a pizza in nothing flat. But, what would I accomplish. I would just feel guilty, my stomach would hurt, and would I not negate all the effort I've put in? 

Let me start at the beginning. The days have not been that hard. Drink a shake every three hours, and have a soup midday. The evening are the hardest. I WANT to CHEW! I am not even really hungry. I can recognize that. A couple nights I cheated with cucumber slices. Then the fatigue set in. So the dietitian told me I could have some broth and  pickles. Of course, it can be difficult once I start looking forward to that broth and pickles and want more broth and pickles than I should have! Lord I sound, like I'm pregnant and having cravings!

Today has been one of my first days at home where I was tempted to eat. I've had three boys here, I baked them sugar cookies. I DID NOT EAT ANY. That was hard. I popped them pop corn. I DID NOT EAT ANY. That was hard. I DID drink some water, I DID eat a pickle, which technically is NOT on the diet, but I was afraid if I broke down on the cookies or popcorn I wouldn't be able to stop. At least with a pickle, I could stop.

So because I was feeling so tempted today, I tried to find some other things to do. I made lip balm! Lavender n' Lime, with beeswax, coconut oil, mango oil, honey,  and vitamin E, I'll share that recipe in another post!  You can find that post here! I also decided to blog/journal about the why I am hungry today! 

I really think it's because I haven't stayed busy. I could have been more active, but who really wants to spend all day cleaning, and doing laundry? Plus, it's cold and snowy outside, (I am really ready for Summer) and I don't want to go to the basement to work on refinishing the dresser I am working on turning into a wine rack and small buffet. I think maybe tomorrow I'll work on that. Listen to me. I sound like Scarlet O'Hara. Now if only I could get her 17" waist while eating Krispy Kreme and Cinnabon.

I have found that the warm soups are more satisfying and fulfilling psychologically and I look forward to having that broth in the evenings. Because of my cravings, I had the broth earlier than normal today.
I even had to turn down an offer of Chic-Fil-A for supper! But, I did it!